i loved her more than anyone. yet , i lose her. why did this happen to me? i do not know. i had to see her shatter into dust. why is the world so unfair to me? why wouldnt it be someone else who died? why? why? why!

filthy humans , i hate you all. you people who cause her death , her death! i will make all of you suffer for generations and generations. its pure revenge! she did nothing wrong yet you killed her because she is with me. whats wrong with it! why cant demons and humans live together? why? why!

random lols.

"he wants you"

this sentenced echoed in kage's head as she pace around. what did Gemini mean by that? he wants her life? or her power? or just simply her? the person herself?

Knowing that its useless to think about it , kage trotted off , leaving those unanswered questions.

(from third person point of view)

As the girl clad in white picks up her sword , she looked at it with those unspeakable emotions. Memories were screaming in her head, telling her to take notice of them but no avail. She felt so lost now , lost in an oblivion and no where to go. The heart of ice is revived once again , and it is much more stronger now.

who could melt the ice again?

As hse looked down on the floor and sighed , wondering whats her next mission. Trying to focus on her work than what happened recently , the demon , the organisation and.. what the demon did to her.

"i dont understand"

slowly she mutter under her breathe and she kept repeating the same line over and over again. feeling frustrated as she could not solve her problems , she put down the sword and rushed out of her room to look for her friend Gemini. A red headed girl stood there as kage approached her. She looked shock as kage , who is known as the ice slayer would not give a dam to her , but at least she is opening her heart now.

"Gemini , why does it mean when a demon uses his hand to touch your lips?" kage said in a straight and dead serious tone. Gemini frozed there , shocked to find out that something shokcing and exciting has happened. But what could she say?

she holds her breath and says..
"Kage , listen carefully. I dont wish to frighten you neither do i like to tell you but since you asked i would say it anyway but dont blame me later on!"

Kage nodded her head as she anticipated for the answer , suddenly she heard the next sentence that Gemini said got her attention.

"He wants you"

"let go of me demon. if you dont do that soon , then i will finish you off this time" kage said as she struggled to get free from the magic circle. The demon just looked at her and muttered " even if i let you go , you will kill me anyway.."

"what do you say demon?" kage asked as meanwhile she is trying to cast a spell but no avail. Kage was in big trouble this time. She was an experienced and professional hunter yet she got caught by a demon. This demon is definitely someone dangerous.

"you are a pretty interesting human. i heard that your name is Kage right? It seriously suits your cold nature" the demon said walking around kage , looking at her. Kage kept very quiet and is focusing on how to get out of this trap.

"it will be a waste to finish you off or drink away your astral power.. so any great suggestions on how to deal with yourself?" the demon asked. Kage kept still and quiet , she felt that theres no need to answer this demon. Slowly and secretly , she charges her astral beam on one of her hands as she stayed still. The demon did not notice it at all and all of a sudden he flet something hit him.

"what? an astral beam?" the demon said using a hand to hold his stomach as he staggred backwards. kage breaks the magic circle and wields her sword towards the demon. "now , how should i deal with you?"

"stop!" a voice is heard as kage turned around. To her horror she saw on the other end was a demon with black wings , and a silver arm.

"black wings? a silver right arm? it cant be. the darkness demon should be dead long time ago!"


phew.. another baka story so ignore it.

Snow falls , covering every footsteps i have left behind. Just what is snow? Its so cold and cruel as it erases my past memories. but were those really memories?

"sigh" , she said as she walked on. Thinking of what to do , everything came crashing down , what could be the possible way to solve everything. Kage walked on and on till as if theres no end , slowly she stopped at a spot and turn back to look. The snow was indeed cruel , her paths were covered up.

She turned back to the front and lift her head up looking straight at a forgotten building. Memories screamed back at her on how was hurt , betrayed and abandoned. Yet she could not look away as there are gentle memories embracing her. Memories of her peaceful life , meeting her saviour and falling in love.

It was an unrequited love. As he is a demon , and she is a hunter. The both sides can never be together despite how deeply in love are they.

"i was a cold , heartless hunter just like my name kage. Yet you appeared in my life and turn everything upside down. The ice in my heart melted , i became weak and slowly i fall in love with you till theres no limit." kage said as she looked down once again.

Many things shot into her mind on what to do next. She need to leave the man , her feet is listening to her but not her heart. She yearn for him so dearly , so dearly.

"who's there!" kage said as she heard sounds of footsteps getting near her. She turned around to the direction of where the sound is coming from. Tears flow from her eyes , her , she could not speak at all. She tried but she could not. Because it is too hard to believe that he is back.

"I have return for you.. kage" the man said as he spread his arms wide.

Things have been passing on like that , yet i am still standing on the very spot. Not a single movement. He stood there , very still , looking at me and muttered a few words under his breath. i dont know what to do , wether to turn away or stay by his side? Even though he never asked for anything but i feel guilty.

i long for the light , yet slowly drawn towards darkness...
i long for the one behind me , yet i cant stop looking at the one in front.

Hellos!
I am back! Dont mind those stuffs at the top , they are just part of my imagination so i aint in any trouble!

*back to drawing*

i am deciding to get S.A the manga after i finish buying Shinshi Doumei Cross and Kitchen Princess. I just notice that S.A , the story at the back (chapter 70++) is kind of interesting. Anyway i seriously like how the number 1 density queen reacts to things. Who wouldnt laugh or get all "she is lame"?

Anyway , i might post some things here soon , as my site ST will be down , i might post all the graphics here for my visitors to grab. Oh yes now i am fiddling with more star textures , i am happy that i can see many many users using my star textures! Almost everywhere! That makes me feel all high and excellent indeed. Who wouldnt?

And i am trying my best to get a good CG tutorial and fiddle with it. My inking controls are getting better each day thus i felt relieve. But y characters still looked wierd.. oh well i aint an experience artist. Just a 1 year old artist? Haha. Even though i have been drawing for my whole life non-stop.

Now i shall go back to more and ore drawing. Making icons too provided if i can find good textures >_< and for my random ramblings from yesterday.


When you know , your parents are fake , they are murderers of your real parents , what would you do?

When you know , death is the only salvation , yet you have so many things you cant let go , what would you do?

When you know , to save everyone is to give up your love one , what will you do?

finally...

When you know , you are dying beside your beloved , will you be happy?

When one day , you know that you are a demon , what will you do?
let me correct this.

When one day , you know that you are in love with a demon , what will you do?
Will you continue to accept this person , or simply walk away?

When you walk away , are you strong enough to forget this person when you love him/her so deeply? So deeply that you will be incomplete without him/her?

When one day you know your soon to be husband was after your money , your power. What will you do? will you leave him or stay with him till the day he leaves you?

Okay so i am back. Errr.. what are those? Those are simple plots for my story. I am planning to write it. So perhaps i could give ya guys a little sneak. it might change but.. oh well.


Its a story of a normal girl who lives a happy life. She had everything she has. She learned many things , violin , piano , any form of arts. She is also blessed by god as she was a great beauty , she had silky hair , and those soft aquamarine eyes. And to plus on to it , she is matchmaked with a man who love her and she love the man too.

One day , in the church , she saw a black winged person , standing there , facing the holy statue of a priestess Annemarie. With that nostalgic eyes , the main girl decides to know whats going on.


its a really a short preview but i guess you guys nkow how the story is suppose to be. and i tell you , this story is gonna have a sad ending. No doubt. I am planning to write more of this already. so hopefully you guys will look out for it.

i guess my post is a little too long , i shall go now, and i gotta put up my lay!

i accidently deleted my layout.
bad bad bad
*emos*

anyway i got a keyboard so i can do the lays.
did 3dlyn's and later doing one for DB's lj.

:DDDDDDDDD
weeness.

after that will be more drawing!

there goes my keyboard.
brb soon.

Exams are over , but not my finals.. oh well at least i am half studying and half playing now!

soon i will join those icontest :DDD
so watch out for me ^^

hmm.. i will be joining shugo chara ones as i got LOTS of SS on it :P
anyway.. i gotta go.. i just finished updating my 2 sites and i am tired..

phew today was tiring indeed. I went around finding a student care centre to do my CIP. darn tired and lazy to move now.. tomorrow i still have my studies and CCA.. oh dear its gonna be real tiring.

imagine my exams coming in less then 15 days. oh my my... i am soo dead for it. i guess i gotta shift my LJ plans back. after the exams , i am gonna hunt down any icon making fest and participate in them!

*roars*

After a long time i came back to livejournal. Phew i decided to come back due to various reasons. well.. basically i wanna use this place to train my icon and banner making skills. so i will be participating in many stuffs , hopefully to make out better graphics for ST.

I will be updating Frappe too if there are decent graphics for me to put in. As for ST it will be on hold i guess due to exams.. + the FTP problem is making me ache. so you know..

I have exams starting in 18 days (aprox) and i am very nervous. Its the end of year exams so i cant screw up. after the exams you would see me playing all day :DDD

Oh yes you notice the skin eh? i somewhat figure out LJ's coding. Took me some time but oh well. i will be figuring out on profile codes as i want one for my profile ^^

i gotta go. i will be active around here so feel free to add me if you like :D

i decided to pop out here again. so i will be posting here at times wit a little of something. it may be rare but at times it will be a pleasant surprise.

i am a wierd person eh? do feel free to add me , iwill do so too.
probably the number of frens might pull me back to LJ.
ya never know.